I sit here alone. My husband of 17 years, we were together for 22, almost half my life... is gone. I threw him out. He will never live with me again.
What else do you do when the person you've spent essentially
half your life with, birthed and raised his children, supported him in
every single way - informs you he's been having an affair for the past two years...AND while he doesn't want to give up the affair (with a whore who is married to someone else and also has children), he wants you to stay in the marriage for the next 4 years so his social status won't go in the shitter.
I always knew something was going on. I couldn't catch it. He kept things under passwords and hidden away where I couldn't get to them. We've been through a year a
therapy where I asked
several times for him to tell me what was going on. At home I asked him to tell me the truth.
Every. Single. Time. He lied.
I knew this was coming, I just didn't know how much it would hurt. He has spent the past two years being emotionally and physically vacant. I've spent the past two years being miserable, hoping this was some midlife crisis that would sort itself out and the person who loved me would come back eventually.
What else do you do?
I am so sad and lonely...
The bright shining life I always dreamed of turned into a huge cliche. What do I do now?